#9 - Intuitive Thoughts Part 2 of 4 -

July 11, 2012
Dear Flower,
This is a continuation from my previous blog post (i.e. Blog Post #8 - Intuitive Thoughts Part 1 of 4 -). In this blog post, as in my previous one, i am relaying to you, verbatim, many of the notes that i took during the early morning hours of May 29, 2012 based off the intuitive thoughts that i was having at the time.

- "If i'm not fully realized, then some of my ignorance goes into the words that i choose---and i don't always make the most sense."

- "And here's another thing i'm learning: God Realization isn't a "Big I" thing: you don't get a Big Ego from it (or you shouldn't, rather)."

- "And there's different ways or standards or levels of God Realization; i'm just an incy wincy bit God Realized. I'm the least God Realized person on the Earth. I'm more like a God-Realization Joke. It's kinda funny in a way--kinda like a ~Sir~ Joke. So.... you know i can be a space cadet; you know ~Sir~ can trick me; He's tricked me all my spiritual life, but in a way that's extremely kind. So, you know what, when i'm in a position of dealing with ~Sir~, i don't have a choice: if He tells me to say something, i have to say it. And, when you're saying something, whether it's truthful or not, simply because ~Sir~ is telling you to say it, -that- is God Realization."
 
- "I can definitely be a space cadet, which could be good for ~Sir~ in manifesting his cuteness and sense of humor. But, the bad kind (of 'space cadet-ness'), of which i also have, can be a quality that interferes with ~Sir's~ manifestation. The problem causing one is kinda like a kid in class that just never pays attention, and then he disrupts the entire class."

- "God keeps things hidden sometimes, and that's for your own good."

- "It's funny how you could think you can out smart God. He'll trick you; He'll let you think that, not to hurt you,  but to help you."
~Mark

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October 27, 2010
Dear Flower,
I don't do karaoke, but i'm thinking of starting 'cause my voice gets better and better with the meditation. And i love singing. Plus my friend has been doing it a lot lately.

Well, i'll be working all night again tonight. Today i slept from about 6am 'til 2pm. My sleeping schedule has been all over the map the last month or so. My boss needs a lot of work done. Plus i'm designing a website on the side.
~Mark  @markenglish13