#23 - More Intuitive Thoughts -

July 19, 2012
Dear Flower,
You know... my notes are too difficult to read. I was originally going to make this a 2 part blog post, with both parts containing the last bit of the intuitive thoughts of mine that i recorded in a notebook in the early morning of May 29th, 2012, but my notes are just too difficult to read. So, i will include these thoughts simply in one blog post and in the next blog post i will talk about something else.

Here we go:

"I gotta figure out a way to get to Dartmouth (i.e. the "Dark Side city"). I would like to see if there was a big explosion somewhere because of the lightening strike. But why weren't there any sirens. Maybe there were sirens but too far away for me to hear."

"You also have to understand that i was raised by people who were often abusive, and i have a lot of holes in my consciousness that need to be filled with the proper truth. I have had the wrong truth--the untruth--put into my consciousness many times by the "raisers". And there's a lot of hurt not caused by me."

"You only need one reason why to never question God: ALL the reasons why were taught by ignorant people; think about it: if we lived in the time of Jesus, would we question the existence of God? or whether God is good, or anything? I don't know if i have to explain the past to you, but what the f*ck happened between whatever was going on THEN and whatever the f*ck is going on *now*. But there's certain shit--like technological development; i don't *mean* that. That's why you need to do the research. You don't understand the complete lack of God in people's minds today compared to whatever was going on then. Lord Jesus. That's your job to figure out."

"This is very interesting where God is now teaching me something. Weird."

"You have a right, when you are hurt. *God Is Dealing With You*. God's Business is other people's hurt. God takes care of *that* Business; that's way beyond my ability to understand."

"Other people, who are idiots, a lot of people are idiots, even myself, try to do God's Business; they can *try*. It's God's Business. He can use instruments, but only through those that try."

"Oh hmmmmmmmmmmmm...... This is so sweet; Jesus, and God, and ~Sir~ teaching me something (at 5:02 am). Uh, this is unbelievable. The hurt. Caused by *them*. That's God's Business and He's gonna take care of it. And Jesus put something into my eyes to make me see something: a -reconnect-. At 5:04. 'Connect to another network'. {I could not connect to the -Internet- earlier; I received an inner impression that told me there would be a reconnect closer to 6:00am meditation time.} How come there's so many higher meaning messages within other messages? Ohhhh... Because *Brooklyn's* going to read this now." : )
~Mark  @markenglish13